It’s been a pretty incredible year for us. It seems like just yesterday, I was waking you up to ask you to come kill a bug in the bathroom, when really what I was doing was getting you out of bed to show you my positive pregnancy test… at 7:30am on a Saturday. Sorry about that, but I think you’ve forgiven me. If not, please consider the baby a peace offering hahaha! It’s strange that you think you love a person as much as you can ever love anyone and, just like that, you somehow manage to fall in love with them even more. I can’t explain it. It just happens.
At a time in our lives when we were trying to conceive to add to our family, our family being you, me, and the dogs, you were so patient in the five months it took to finally get the news we had been hoping for. At nine weeks, when we had a miscarriage scare, you held me and told me everything was going to be ok and that God’s will was going to be done and that either way, someday, we would have a little one to call our baby. From that point on, you almost became superman; and I don’t mean the Superman I keep in the closet for moving heavy things when you’re not here. Even though carrying my bags wasn’t the funnest thing in the world, you not only carried my bags, but you assisted me on every single shoot I had after that nine week point. It’s been so amazing and awesome to have you working by my side at each wedding I’ve second shot. I don’t know what it is, but I feel like you understand just how hard I work, just by being there to observe it. It’s truly amazing to have your best friend by your side to help you, even when they aren’t supposed to be.
It hasn’t just been carrying my bags a million times for me though. I can’t tell you what a help you’ve been all around. Even on photo jobs with carrying gear, cleaning lenses, setting up my lighting, packing up, burning discs, changing out batteries, and changing out memory cards, you’ve been such a big help around the house. In the last few weeks, I’ve become so fatigued that sometimes it is even hard to get out of bed, even after a long nights’ sleep. You’ve also been amazing with the dogs. You’ve really stepped up, especially in taking care of Riley’s incessant need for attention and walks.
You’ve been amazing with helping get Carly’s room ready for her delivery. It was so cute to watch you put together her changing table and crib. I loved having our co-ed baby shower with you. It just wouldn’t have been the same without you there. I know it is usually a girl thing, but aside from my best girl friend, you’re my other best friend and I couldn’t NOT share it with you. I’ve loved watching you get excited over small things too. You’re so cute to watch when you watch my belly for the slightest of kicks or put your hand on my belly to feel her movements. I always laugh when you talk to her in that silly voice you do. You’re also super cute when you talk about what you wonder what she will be like someday and we exchange stories of the type of poo she is going to grace us with… you know, the “poo back” explosion stories.
You’re going to be a great daddy. You’re not only a great man, but you’re a great husband which means, at least in my book, you’ll be a great daddy. Sure, you may not know much about raising a child yet, or even caring for a baby, but neither do I. We’ll learn together, we’ll gain experience, and in time, we’ll sort of have it figured out. Sure. We’ll make mistakes, but that’s part of the learning process. I’ve fallen more and more in love with you through our pregnancy and I have a suspicious feeling that when I see you look at her for the first time, I’ll melt all over again. When we’re alone for the first time in the hospital, when she grabs your finger for the first time, when you hold her and rock her to sleep, you’ll have me just as wrapped around your finger as she will have you around hers.
On Sunday, we will be full term (37 weeks) and now it’s just the waiting game.
I can’t even begin to express how grateful I am to have a husband like you. Men like you are hard to fine, but you’re worth your weight in gold. I couldn’t imagine doing this alone, much less with someone else. I’m so grateful and blessed. We are so blessed. Life just keeps getting better. We may not be rich with money, but we are rich in so many other things. It’s truly amazing how God has brought about this season of our lives. Even reading hundreds of our old notes from high school together over hot chocolate, apple cider, and next to the Christmas tree (literally, hundreds), it’s been amazing to see our 11 year journey together. I love you with all of my heart and among everything else, I just wanted to say thank you. You’ve given me so much joy and happiness already, you’ve provided for me in ways I never could, and you continue to love me despite my imperfections. I love you. Thank you.