Dawn. It’s something I always hated growing up. I’ve always been the kind of person that loves to sleep in, but now that I’m older, I’ve come to really love waking up early, before everyone else is awake, to take in the morning air, sip some hot coffee, watch the sun begin to illuminate my little world, and hear and watch the birds. It’s as if a new day was born… because it was. It’s a new start. A fresh start. A new time with endless possibilities.
I’ve always thought of my blog as a personally professional blog. You know, somewhere where I could talk pretty candidly about what was going on in my life personally and professionally. I can type the way I talk. I can usually draw the line.
But, my friends, today, rather tonight (since it’s 11:30PM… my usual work time) is the dawn of a new day. I’m just going to come out and say it. It’s hard being a working mom. Not only is it hard being a working mom, it’s hard being a business owner and the mother of two young children. I used to think I “had it down” and figured out how to balance, but just when I thought I had it all together, baby #2 came along.
Now more than ever, I’m having a very difficult time balancing life and work. All of a sudden, I’m torn between responding to emails, editing photographs, trying to figure out a business plan with goals for this year and how to meet them with wiping snotty noses, finding where “that” smell came from and entertaining the girls. I don’t know how people do it. I imagine they do it a lot like me. They stay up super late and get up super early and feel miserable in between, but like most entrepreneurs on Shark Tank say, “There’s got to be a better way!”
We’ve tried going the Nanny route. The thought of leaving my kids with someone other than my parents is unnerving, but I decided to take a leap of faith and I feel like it hasn’t worked out for a reason. The first girl was great, but after only one time of her coming, she quit nannying altogether to go back to school. We had someone else lined up but she decided against the time commitment. I quickly realized that it wasn’t a nanny I wanted, it was uninterrupted time to work that I wanted. Could I work straight for 8 hours a day? No. Could I work regular office hours?
Definitely not, but if my desire is to have uninterrupted tim to work, then I had to plan my day differently.
So I’m starting a revolution in myself and my business. I’m throwing away the business standard that all creative professionals try to live up to and I’m just making it work. Can I set regular business hours? No… but I can answer emails, edit photographs, and blog at midnight, uninterrupted. I can raise my girls, which is ultimately what I want, be involved in their daily lives, and still continue to create. Have a traditional photo studio? No thanks. I love my home studio. It’s comfortable, I can control every aspect of it and I don’t have the overhead expense of a commercial space. I also don’t have a commute! Amen to that! Oh! And I don’t have to share my Keurig… except on shoot days, but that’s a given.
So, my blog readers, I’m going to start blogging everything… No more two separate blogs, no more “only photography related stuff” mentality, just honest, real life struggles. It’s not always candy and rainbows. Wait. Yes it is. No it’s not. Yes it is. Because when you work for yourself, you can eat candy unjudged by everyone in an office setting AND if you eat Skittles, well then there’s your rainbow. BOOM! Peace out. Word to your Mom.